Well folks, today is the day before Steve's big court date. I haven't heard from him so I don't know what's going on. Don't know if he's going to go to court or flee. My sense from the last time that I talked to him was that he was going to court. But knowing him, I know that he's not a happy puppy right now. So I don't know if I'll get a phone call with crying, yelling, or some combination of the two...or perhaps telling me to come get my stuff cause he's packing up and moving to Boston. I wish to God that I had taken my photographs with me the last time I was there.
So I'm kinda waiting...not nervous or scared...no real emotion attached to it...maybe just curious, who knows
After all, even though this is my life and the stakes are pretty high, I gotta admit it's some good drama (sick I know, but true).
But while I'm waiting I'm dreaming...
Dreaming of the day when I'll have no drama but a quality relationship with a wonderful man, I'd like to think my soulmate. Perhaps, it will even be Steve (I did say that I was dreaming). Maybe he's call, tell me that he loves me and say that he's sorry, that he'll change and get help, and that he'll move to where I am. Dreaming of the day when I have someone to share my life with, someone to help me raise my 3 beautiful children...someone to watch over me...
As always, here's a song to go along with the mood...
You Might Die Trying
by The Dave Matthews Band
To change the world,
Start with one step.
However small,
The first step is hardest of all.
Once you get your gate,
You will walk in tall.
You said you never did,
Cause you might die trying,
Cause you might die trying.
Cause you--
If you close your eyes,
Cause the house is on fire.
And think you couldn't move,
Until the fire dies.
The things you never did,
Oh, cause you might die trying,
Cause you might die trying.
You'd be as good as dead,
Cause you might die trying,
Cause you might die trying.
If you give, you, you begin to live.
If you give, you begin to live.
You begin, you get the world.
If you give, you begin to give
You get the world, you get the world.
If you give, you begin to live.
You might die trying.
Oh, you might die trying.
Yeah, you might die trying.
The things you never did,
Cause you might die trying;
You'd be as good as dead.
You never did.
Love ya all...
