Beautiful light is born of darkness,



so the Faith that springs from conflict is often the strongest and best.

~ R. Turnbull

Hey guys, what's up? It's the end of the week and I wanted to end off light but I've had the question burning a hole in my head ever since my interview this week. Ever wonder...

JUST WHAT IS THE PLAN GOD?

And add to that...am I getting all that I'm supposed to be getting along the way? What do I need to be doing? Etc, etc, etc...

The interview...Hmmmm...how did it go? Well, it went OK. I went in, did the dog and pony show...they talked...I talked...they loved me...I loved what I heard. Bingo, right? All I need to do is sit back and wait for the phone call. But there's a catch. Something they added at the end of the interview. I'll have to be able to obtain a security clearance...which involves a credit check.

(BACKGROUND) For those of you who don't know my credit is crappy. Long story short. I was in love, quit my job, and didn't pay attention to my finances. Used my retirement funds to keep "our" boat floating while "my" ship went down in flames. Now I'm reaping what I sowed. So we'll see what happens. I've spoken to folks who have indicated that I still have a chance. But clearly there's a lesson here for me.

LESSONS, LESSONS, LESSONS!!!

A year ago this scenerio would have sent me into a downward spiral. But not today...not this year. So what's different? EVERYTHING!!! There are two things that I know...

#1. That this is my year and all good things are coming my way. It's been a long road out of hell and I've hung in there. Don't know where it's coming from but I just have this undeniable, unshakable feeling that goodness is right around the corner. I'm not going to give up...not this close to the finish line.

#2. The second thing is that I've done my work. Dreamed my dreams...planned my plans...and went forward. Took care of all of the things I was supposed to be doing this year. And here as I hear that once again my credit might be an issue I'm about ready to file my bankruptcy case. So the very issue that's the problem is beginning to be resolved.

I'm so very proud of myself. The road has been very very long and I have a lot more to go. But the interesting thing is that the load seems to becoming lighter as I go. So here in the middle of uncertainty is a lesson.

So was that it God? Was I supposed to see this not as an block but a way station. A time moment to pause and see how far I've come by not giving up...to acknowledge my strength. A time to reflect as I take the next step? Hey guys, it's all about the lessons, isn't it?

Wishing peace to you all.

Prayers...Good Thoughts...whatever ya got...please send them my way. I have job interview this Wednesday. It's for a pretty good position and it would allow me to begin to support my family again and continue the restoration of my dignity. I'm looking for good things to come into my life during my 44th year. This would be a nice beginning. Thanks y'all. Much love to you.



How Do You Spell Success?

S...elect your goal.
U...nlock your personal potential.
C...ommit yourself to your plan.
C...hart your course.
E...xpect problems.
S...tand firm on your commitment.
S...urrender everything to God.

The True Measure of Success

To be able to carry money without spending it;
To be able to bear an injustice without retaliating;
To be able to do one's duty when critical eyes watch;
To be able to keep at a job until it is finished;
To be able to do the work
and let others receive the recognition;
To be able to accept criticism without letting it whip you;
To like those who push you down;
To love when hate is all about you;
To follow God when others put detour signs in your path;
To have a peace of heart and mind because
you have given God your best.
This is the true measure of success.

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This birthday just keeps getting better and better...I so love the Dave Matthews Band and I hope you guys enjoy the post. Much love to you all.

Here's a few more pictures
in case you're like me and
you can't get enough of the band!!!


One of my favorite recordings...oh heck I love them all. I couldn't pick just one if you offered me a million bucks!!!


And of course the beautiful Fire Dancer. If ya see a beat up old Blazer with this on the back...it's ME!!!

Crash Into Me

You've got your ball,
You've got your chain
Tied to me tight, tie me up again.
Who's got their claws
In you my friend?
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock,
And sweet you roll
Lost for you, I'm so lost for you

Oh, and you come crash into me
And I come into you
And I come into you
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream

Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I'm bare-boned and crazy... for you.

Oh, and you come crash into me
Baby, and I come into you
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream

And if I've gone overboard
Then I'm begging you
To forgive me
In my haste
When I'm holding you so girl,
Close to me

Oh and you come crash into me, yeah
Baby, and I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show the world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show your world to me
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream

Oh, I watch you there
Through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing, but you
Wear it so well
Tied up and twisted,
The way I'd like to be
For you, for me, come crash into me
Come crash into me, yeah

Crash into me...
Crash into me...

You know, I'm the king of the castle,
You're the dirty rascal, crash into me.
Please crash into me, baby...

Oh, no no no...
Yes, I see the waves
Come and crash into me.
See the waves come and crash into me.
Crash into me.

Oh man! The birthday party is over...it's time to start cleaning up...and survey the damage. But that's the nice thing about cyber parties...there's no clean up!!!



But I'd be remiss if I didn't send out a huge cyber thank you with lots of HUGS and KISSES. I really didn't do much at home on my birthday but I sure had a hell of a party here in the Stream. Gosh...what a great time you guys, I'm still high from the past two days. And according to Val I have 42 more days left to party!!!

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!

Good news!!! I'm back on line. Took care of that big bad virus...wiped out the infected hard drive and installed a new operating system...virus protection...and other bug killing software. Of course I'm scared to death to surf anymore!!! Whatever my computer got just came in and shut the whole thing down...scary!!!

So I'm off to surf the Stream...it's been a long time. I really did miss you guys and I can't wait to get around this weekend and see what you guys are up to. But before I go I gotta share something with you all. The article popped up on my birthday and it made me smile given what I put in my post about wishing for boobs. That and the fact that it's my real name.

Poor Janet, she just can't help showing the girls off!!! Oh well, I know morality and all that stuff but I guess she figures if ya got it flaunt it....who knows? Anyway, this was the article...

Janet’s breasts are back.

The singer, who caused a furor when she flashed a boob at the Super Bowl in 2004, appears bare-breasted in her new video for the single “So Excited.” Although nipples are never clearly visible, Jackson’s clothes disappear in a number of shots, and she quickly reaches up to cover her bare breasts. “You’d think she’d have learned from that whole [Super Bowl] debacle,” sighs a fan. “The girl just can’t help herself.”